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hmm realised i havent blogged properly in ages, but that's because there's really nothing much to blog about.

life's just been a boring routine of studying, but occassionally injected with moments of fun (:



and i guess those little things make studying somewhat more bearable.



friday was a great day, because it was shun's birthday so i got to catch up with her and juju and it was awesome, before talking on the phone with jess haha (: so much for teacher's day celebrations! ><




then went out to study with angel which was so unproductive because we kept talking and as a result decided to give up and walk around taka instead haha.


last night was just a lot of time on the phone haha.


then today! just went to meet my awesome cousin hahah :D and spend awesome time because i am such a fun person, admit it melanie HAHAHAHA (: in a strangely coincidental/ reminiscent way of the events last year haha.

haha after a series of failed jumpshots like the above with the timer... (i mean who the hell jumps like that together ohgosh! how embarrassing haha!)
we finally succeeded! after chasing away a gazillion couples at the istana park haha!
WHOOPEEEE (:
and dessert! yummy!

and i dont really feel like blogging anything else about the mundane, just because.

but the end is near, and it scares me a lot. there's no time to feel/think much, but when it hits me it's actually quite worrying. we're so caught up with studying and our individual lives, that it seems like a premonition of what's going to come after the As. without school as a binding mechanism, how many people will we still keep in touch with? will we still remain friends, or even talk to each other anymore beyond jc? it's already taking so much effort now, and i think it's only going to get harder. maybe i'm just "So empty on the inside,/So busy out there".


but i guess looking beyond the shitz that happened, i'm pretty much grateful for everything else. i actually had tons to say about it but what does it matter anymore. even if i've said it a million times, i don't think you've ever really heard it anyway. but today was awesome, because i was having so much fun i kind of forgot(: this time last year, i wouldn't know how i would get through this year, but in the end, i guess somehow, i did.


i have no idea why i'm typing all this when i should actually be doing the thick stack of prelim papers in front of me, but i guess its because my grades are probably one of the last things i'll even remember if i were to sit down and reminisce about jc ten years down the road. i know how sometimes everyone talks about how crappy jc is, myself included, because it failed to meet all our expectations of it. but i think we do have to acknowledge the good things that came out of it too, undeniably.

i think studying really saps all your energy such that you have no time to think about anything else, so now i end up sounding like i'm just rambling on endlessly. but i just thought that today's a day that warrants some kind of reflection i guess.

你说会记得我, 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you

omgg i am not functioningggg ):

can't explain why

(:

I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason
I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here

after seeing "the closest thing to crazy" on jiak's top 25 playlist, i decided to download it, and along with "And now I know that there's a link between the two, Being close to craziness and being close to you", something else in the song struck me.

it was the repetition of the year of being seventeen.

seventeen's just the year when we all go crazy isn't it. and we'll never be the same again.

yay (: 2A2B <3! haha before the mugging megalomania starts again this week i shall post some photos from the happier times (actually just yesterday! ) to make myself/ourselves happied :D

actually we were very excited on friday already because we were happily decorating bob's present which is a travel journal which we are going to use when we go to gold coast (: (:

and this is the funniest page in there ever hahahah! see if you can tell why :D

and so yesterday we celebrated bob's birthday at the glass house, and as fate would have it, our birthday surprises never go as planned haha, especially when they involve the external element of engaging others to be involved! so smart us thought our plan was foolproof this time- we met up early to practise our singing, sent jolyn and princess to the glass house early to arrange for the balloon and cake to come out, and then jiaks and i walked over with bob. and i mean, about a gazillion people celebrate their birthday there all the time,so it should turn out perfectly flawless right? but NO, it was not meant to be haha.


just as we were happily finishing up our very yummy dinner, jolyn went to tell them that it was THE time to bring in the cake and their gang to do the birthday rap, and as we were waiting anticipatedly for their arrival, we were suddenly interrupted by this waitress who went (with her china accent so we didn't quite catch what she was saying anyway): er, your chocolate mousse cake, bring now?

faints- and the worst thing? she asked bob that! all of us didnt hear anything until we heard the taboo words of C-A-K-E. and froze up in shock (i mean, who would expect such a retarded error from a crew of seasoned birthday celebrators!!) and after ten seconds of shock and silence, i decided to attempt to salvage it by going: er, what cake?


and at that moment, the rest of them thought it was so unconvincing ): that they all burst out laughing. so there was jolyn, jiaks, princess and i in guffaws for a good few minutes, along with a very bewildered bob and an even more bewildered waitress. and all our attempts to the waitress of: we think you've got the wrong table! failed because she didnt quite understand our english -.-and to make it worse, bob suddenly interjected with: OH LOOK there's someone there with a balloon! to which we all pretended not to hear. and so in the end we gave up and told the supid waitress: YES YOU CAN SERVE THE CHOCOLATE MOUSSE CAKE NOW -.- haha


but anyhow it was a really funny night! and bob got her birthday rap and CHOCOLATE MOUSSE CAKE anyway. haha.
the cake -.-
the birthday girl (:
yay us!
even more us haha!


okay and at this point, we now had to find a place to sing our item for bob, so we decided to proceed to the istana park. and stroll first, so jiakang said: WOW SUCH PRETTY FLOWERS! (they were just heliconias btw) and to which stupid princess who was slow to latch onto our plan went: AIYOH jiakang! you mean you've never seen these flowers before? my garden also have!

and then we were like -.- so eventually on the pretext of looking for more pretty flowers we decided to proceed to the fountain thingum, which was dressed up very patriotically!

the very patriotic fountain and a very pleased-after-being-serenaded bob (:
YIPPEEE 2A2B FOREVERZZZZZZ! (:

haha it was as awesome as ever meeting up and having fun, because after our failed birthday surprise, we proceeded to reminisce extremely fondly about each birthday screw-up, and it does seem like there's never been a flawless execution of our plans before haha!

and we went to the starhub at PS to watch whatever was left of the table tennis match before it closed and we went home!

i think one or two fun days a week make me a much happier person(:

i don't like seeing people around me go crazy with stress it's scary :/ its much better to find joy in little occassional things like 2A2B and FISH SPA this week (:

TGIF!

yesterday was the most awesome day of the whole week :D :D :D and it did do justice to us being excited about it for the entire week heehee!


nattay and i decided to take a trip down to qianhu for the FISH SPA :D

haha and its freaking hell in choa chu kang so we started our arduous journey there at four in school, only to catch the 6pm shuttle bus from CCK mrt! which was empty save for the two of us HAHA.

haha it was such an exciting experience and i wouldn't have given it up to mug for a few more hours or something because it was totally worth the trip haha! not in the sense that i really enjoyed the fish spa :/ but because i spent time with my favouritest junior of all time who i always do retarded things with haha!

we were so apprehensive about dipping our feet into the pond full of tiny fishes and omgosh it was freaking ticklish we just kept grabbing on to each other and laughing and shrieking like maniacs haha and when it got too ticklish we even started kicking and splashing water around haha!


camwhoring to try and avoid thinking of the fish biting our feet and tickling us!

haha dunno howcome got a heart in the middle of the footprint but (:
timid me who only let the small fish bite me!
brave nattay who let the big fish suck her! hahaa omg and there was this pond full of big fishes, and omg it was damn scary haha we didn't dare to go there!

and actually nattay wasn't that brave either! the above photo was posed for, because even though the pond was supposed to only be full of small fishes, there happened to be these few big ones who would enjoy coming round to suck our feet and scare the hell out of us. so there we would be, happily chatting and enjoying the spa, when SUDDENLY, THAT STUPIDHELL BIG FISH will provide SUCTION for our legs and make us shriek in shock. so in the end we had to be on the perpetual lookout for that menace coming near our feet.

yay (:

so after our spa we decided to check out a bit of the farm (: and as a result missed the last shuttle bus back, which marked the beginning of a new adventure!

with taxi operators hanging up on us because no cabby wanted to come to this god-forsaken place to pick us up, we were advised by the uncle at the cafe that we were better off taking a "4-6 minutes walk" out. and omg never trust old uncles.

but he was nice, and threw us a stick, along with a word of caution that there might be wild dogs on the way out waiting to bite us and that the stick would be good protection.

so we embarked on our trek out. and pls la we walk for at least 15 minutes before we finally saw the main road! and then on the way out, we did see a dog, but we decided to calmly walk past it instead of looking at it menacingly with our weapon and it was a good choice indeed :D

note the transition of the colour of the sky in the photos above and below. 4-6 minutes my foot haha.

all ready to defend ourselves :S
us with the stick before we threw it at the roadside before boarding the bus haha!

and then we went on a foodie hunt round cck hub or shopping mall or whatever which is actually quite hip haha! before cabbing to novena to go to udders to eat ice cream!

so there you go! that was my very exciting day :D:D

and actually the week was pretty awesome too, what with the olympics etc. with the exception of the lack of sleep :/

and studying has been pretty non-existent because of distractions or because if i happen to go home early i'll just nap instead ><

(: photos from saturday, my only active day this weekend haha i think i sleep too much! i woke up at 4 on friday, 2 on saturday, 4 yesterday and 1 today. gosh :/

anyway look at how patriotic we were! hah it was seriously coincidental (:

and fireworks watching (albeit being blocked by the huge canopy at times)

at the padang! ah the night view along city hall river is so nice! i remember telling cherylw at the preview last year that i would love to sit along the singapore river and look at the fullerton lights at talk for hours on end to my favourite person (at that time) and i think the view of the old supreme courts at night is seriously damn nice as well!

NDP 08!

cool building haha (:

YAY I LOVE YOU KAREN (:

yay temporary escape from work (: okay not like i've been doing much anyway ><>

and sometimes i wish i was a boy, or that i at least had the emotional resilience of one.

or being tin (wo)man sometimes might do me good as well. HAHAHA.

:D :D haha angel (: (: haha talking retarded crap with you never fails to cheer me up! and somehow everything is dispelled :D haha!

but today was quite a great day! slept in before reading p&p at gloria jeans while waiting for karen to come, then went around the raffles city basement buying food before heading to the padang to watch the ndp on the big screen! but it was quite boring so we gave up and sat down and talked and waited for the fireworks instead!

then went to jap marche to eat and talk somemore yay! karen salvaged my weekend of being a hermit :D haha!

and then despite hearing some OooO [HAHAHAHA] thing just now i'm not really bothered by it anyway cos it's not true at all! haha and now talking crap has made me forget everything!

haha but on a serious note, i shall remember not to shoot my mouth off when i'm remotely annoyed at something because later people take me seriously but i can't even remember what i said anymore :/

okay it's time to mug the next two days away! (haha ya right i dont think i'll be able to keep to it!)

pictures soon!

okay oops i havent blogged properly in a week! anyway last sat i can't exactly rmb what i did? think i went swimming or something? haha
and then sunday was singfest! met pok and nicole for lunch at astons at cathay which was really yummy and cheap (: before joining the guys at fort canning! and smart us cut queue because if not we would be queueing for at least two hours i bet and luckily no one caught us and drove us out of the queue ><
singfest!
the girls!
I'M YOURSSS
DONT CHAA haha (:





YAYY VALL (: (:


and celebrations were fun! singing and getting high and stuffs (:

and then after that went home with carmen (: hot siglap friend haha hotstuff indeed :D

and on a sidenoteee the week is over and everything is too! thankgoodness. anyway hm after all whats this compared to everything else weve been through hahahaha.

and i think i let my emotions get the better of me too much and i often have to pay the price for it ><

and actually i felt like giving a shoutout to someone i love a lot, but on the other hand i think there's no need to! but anyway much <333

(oops so many 'ands' haha)

It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me
I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets

And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you

Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me(You wasn't man enough)
To come and tell me(That I was never the one)
Like you said I was(You could have told someone)
You knew you didn't love me anymore

If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinkin' I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something 'bout you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you're no good for me
And that's the way it is

I tell myself
Get over you
It's over right
Right thing to do
And just when I thought I was done
You pull me in for another run
I can't take this
I won't take this
I can't do this
I Won't do it

Even if I know in the end somehow it always comes back to you

ohmygod it's been a horribly crazy week, and i'm just really glad it's over.




ehhh??



please dont ever say that again, because you honestly dont know how much that hurt, and i think it's actually the other way round.



"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."- Marilyn Monroe

i think my life is a flux! it only seems like the earlier half has happened. when will it start getting right again?

life's been some kind of whirlwind these days, and i have a sinking feeling it's going to become a torpedo soon.

the stress is really killing everyone, and as much as you try to avoid it yourself, you see it taking over almost everyone around you, it's like an overhanging cloud that pervades our existence. and stress is some kind of killer trigger, because it just makes everyone get so uptight about everything, and it triggers all kinds of incomprehensible emotions such that you yourself don't even know what you're going through.

If this is the kind of emotional intensity that is going to overwhelm me for the next three months, all i can say is good luck to myself and us, because i wonder if we'll still have any energy left at the end of it all.




and to combat all that emo-ness, here are some photos from the happier times!
on our way to fort canning, so pretty (:
the whole class at BUTS!

(:
awesomezz


the pretty lights show at the national museum

the gi-normous watermelon sat turf city! 20kg!!
pretty sunset at ihc touch! i miss touchhhhhh ): ):
coupled with pretty teammates yayy (: (:

and the happiest of them all? are all stored somewhere in the depths of my memory. don't think we've had that many photos to represent them all anyway.



i never thought it'd be this tough. with time? maybe someday.